All too much I grow frustrated with myself and become upset when I expect too much. I want to be great, and I want to be great now: I am a product of my culture's wanting instant gratification. Learning, however, takes time and energy and patience and endurance and focus and, and, and... When I take a minute, what I really long for is space to slow, to breathe, to give myself time. I went skiing on Mt. Rainier yesterday (my first time in the back-country) and I was frustrated that I wasn't as accomplished as the others. I wasn't able to 'enjoy' our experience on the same level. My longing for sameness actually only defined more clearly my separateness. The goal must be to accept my situation. Accept where I am and move forward. Only there will I be able to take the first step.
I need to apply this to my life as an artist too. I see where I am not and grow frustrated, my fear prevents progress.
The goal: accept my situation and relinquish fear in order to take ONE step at a time.
linds! i miss you. and i am so glad i wandered upon your blog. i really love it...your posts, mantra, layout. etc. :)
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p.s. your post reminds me a lot of my walk wth God...meeting Him where I am at, instead of where I think I should be...and in realizing that, I am able to move one step closer.
love.
great word... I said it a thousand times to people in Africa, even as I need to say it to myself: step by step! Thanks for sharing this. And you'll enjoy "the king's speech"!
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